Something Unexpected

Hair scattered upon a pillow, the gentle caress of his hands running down my hips.

I don't know how it got this bad. I don't know where it even began. One moment, I felt alone in the world, left to face everything on my own. The threat of hatred and anger pulling at every emotion, numbing my mind until there's nothing left. Just emptiness as I stare blankly at the familiar ceiling. As I feel a familiar set of hands resting upon my body. As the familiar voice echoes within my mind, asking me if I still wanted to do this. No, I don't. I don't want to be here, but something keeps pulling me back to him. Something keeps making me feel as if there is a debt I owe to him. Or maybe its just me making excuses for still loving him. For still wanting to feel the warmth as I lie next to him, pulled in closely by his arms. Feeling protected and safe. But while he's holding me, staring straight into me with those eyes that I can't resist, they don't have the same affect as they once did.
All I can feel now is emptiness.
We were happy at one point. There was a beautiful fire lit between the two of us that no one could extinguish. No matter how much someone flirted, no matter how much someone tried to grab either of our attention, we were engulfed by that flame, and we were too busy burning to pay attention to anything else. But then lies, doubt and anger came about, smothering the fire, and making it hurt to stay there, all the while I kept trying to throw wood on a fire that was doomed to be put out. And that's when someone came and pulled me from the flames and showed me a new and better life. And so I didn't go back. I moved away from the fire, scared to ever touch it again. But soon, the brave soul who had pulled me from the flames left me on my own. Abandoned me and left me to wither away into nothing. Left me to drown in the sea of emotions that flood my mind.


WIP - This is no where near finished.